Travel Girl

Hiatus

2009-07-26T09:02:00.000-07:00

I will be on blog hiatus, not sure for how long. Too much going on!!

Lots of work but some fun

2009-07-11T12:12:00.000-07:00

I started my new job, well hospital orientation. Even though it's not physically demanding, hospital orientation is such a yawner that it wears you out mentally. Bright side: I get paid:)

In between orientation and my full time job, I've managed to have some fun.
Babygirl2 turned 22 on July 1. Since babygirl1 was coming to visit in a few short days, we decided to celebrate on July 3rd.

We had an awesome dinner at P.F Changs, a chain Chinese bistro. it's Americanized Chinese but tasty all the same. Even more interesting is that my ex husband and his girlfriend were there along with my mister. We have certainly come a long way!

Buddy and me! My baby boy is ginormous at 6'1". Yikes!!

Babygirl1 and hubby

Babygirl2, BBoy and son (I need a nickname for my new grandson!).

Me and my Mister;)

After a good, filling dinner it was time to sing happy birthday to my pretty girl!

My girl Loathes the singing part but didn't mind dessert:)

We really had a good time. In 2 short months, babygirl2 will be married and will be Bboy's wife. It's so hard to believe that my feisty, gutsy, beautiful, intelligent baby is old enough to be a wife. Where did the time go?? I feel good that I can look back and not wish I had more time when she was young. I enjoy my babygirls and my buddy in their youngness.

The family and my kids' Dad. Look how buddy towers over his Dad!!

The kids and me!

I am grateful for my fabulous kids! It wasn't always easy or fun but, so very worth it!!

I'm a redhead!

2009-07-02T08:17:00.000-07:00

I so needed a change in my life. Feeling overwhelmed, and a little restless I decided to do this:

I LOVE it. Just what I needed to get through these next 2 months.
Oh, and this is what happen when my Mister saw me...

Oh Yea;)

Yesterday, Babygirl2 turned 22!! I will write a post on that later.

Busy! Very Busy

2009-06-28T17:08:00.000-07:00

Life is sooooooooooooooo busy now with work and Babygirl2 upcoming wedding.
Exhausting.

in spite of the craziness, I manage to make it to a friends last night to watch some fireworks. My mister joined me along with his little dude. We had a fabulous time. it was most fun to watch little dude's face during the fireworks. It was a kick.

Happy Sunday everyone.

Scholarship for Babygirl2 and a mini Family reunion

2009-06-14T09:55:00.000-07:00

Babygirl2 was awarded The Sean Brunske Economics Scholarship and she was invited to attend a reception in honor of this scholarship. Three other students received this same scholarship.

I am so proud of Babygirl2. It's not been an easy road for her and this honor, her achievement is so awesome. Of all my kids, she has the biggest brains. She also is witty, funny and gorgeous.

Babygirl2 use to tell me that I was too hard on her and that I thought she was much smarter than she really is. Remember when your Mom said stuff to you and you thought she was crazy only to realize later in life that she was right?

I think Babygirl2 realizes I was right:)

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Saturday June 13

My Bigbro M and family flew in from Minnesota on Thursday for 4 short days. He has a new GREAT grand baby! He is the oldest and there are 7 of us in total (I'm the baby and yes I probably do still act like the baby!)but still! How we get this old?!?

I manage to get 5 out of 7 of us together. Two brothers couldn't make it.
We met at LaBella pizza for some catching up and some awesome pizza!

This place has been here for 54 years. I use to come here after football games and whenever I wanted great pizza.

Our guest of honor

Pictures before gluttony:

And after:

The siblings. The one with the white mustache is BigBro M.

My Fam!

My Sis and me!

Me and BigBroM

My awesome Kids! Look how ginormous buddy is next to his sisters!

What an awesome day!

Engagement Pictures

2009-06-12T07:25:00.000-07:00

No, I am not engaged but babygirl2 is and we got her engagement pictures back just the other day. Unfortunately, the photographers' site does not allow me to download the pictures to my computer. But, being the smart woman that I am, I took a photo of the photo. Pretty cleaver huh?!

Overall, I was not that impressed with the pictures but enough are good that it works out okay. The wedding is coming faster then I can make money! EEK!!!!!!!!

Babygirl2 was awarded a scholarship from the Economics department and they are having a reception today to present it to her. I'm so proud of my babygirl! Pictures will certainly follow!

Six unimportant things that make me happy

2009-06-11T10:04:00.000-07:00

I was tagged a few days ago (sorry Danica) to blog about six unimportant things about me that make me happy so here I go....

1. When I come home, my dog Sophie *smiles* at me. Damn cute!

2. Costa Rican coffee brewed by myself

3. Watching Sex and the City from season 1 all the way to season 6.

4. How babygirl1 and Buddy call me MaMa and babygirl2 calls me Mommy.

5. Playing Wii tanks

6. Lying in my Mister's arms.

Me in sort of a nutshell. Really, the great things in life are the little things.

I am tagging:

1. Life is a cruise

2. LindaLou

3. Postcards from the edge

Have fun Ladies:)

Beach getaway

2009-06-07T11:18:00.001-07:00

I went to Laguna beach last Sunday with my Mister. We stayed at Casa laguna Inn and Spa. This was my third visit, our second. Remember, we went in March?

I LOVE this place! Romantic and cozy. The staff is awesome and the breakfast is exceptional. Exactly what I needed.
We explored the grounds a little more this time. I was soooo pissed because I forgot the camera! Travel girl is losing it;(

We ate dinner at a place called The Beach House. It sits on the beach (DUH!)and we had a wonderful table overlooking the ocean.
Mister got the Maine lobster and it was excellent. I tried lobster thermador for the first time and was pleasantly surprised.

After a restful night sleep lulled by the ocean we ate a fabulous breakfast and hit the road. We drove along the coast and ended up in Newport beach. Walking barefoot in the sand and chatting about our kids, our future was a nice close to our fabulous 24 hours.

I just wish I had brought the f*&king camera. I much better with pictures then words;)

Even in The New York Times

2009-05-30T15:30:00.000-07:00

I could hardly belive my eyes when I scrolled down to the OPED section of the NYtimes and found this OPED

May 30, 2009
Op-Ed Columnist
Jon & Kate Begin to Grate
By GAIL COLLINS
Back before the turn of the millennium, my husband and I wrote a book that contained a lot of lists of the best and worst of the last thousand years. Our friend Alfred Gingold contributed “Ten Worst Ideas of the Millennium,” which included flagellants, foot binding, wine in a box, trench warfare and French mime.

I was thinking about that list the other day when I was reading about the crisis on the set of “Jon & Kate Plus Eight.” This is, of course, the reality series about the Gosselins, who used fertility treatments to conceive twins, and then sextuplets. After four televised years of birthday parties and projectile vomiting during flu season, Jon & Kate’s marriage appears to have hit the rocks of tabloid hell.

And in the process, although we are only nine years into the 21st century, I believe we have already discovered two of the new millennium’s 10 worst ideas:

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Fertility treatments that produce enough babies to field an entire team for any sport except tennis.

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Reality shows about the day-to-day lives of any family that is not headed by an aging rock star.

“One day my kids are gonna Google me,” moaned Jon, who was caught frolicking with a 23-year-old teacher while Kate was off on a book tour. After weeks of headlines in supermarket magazines, the Gosselins were back on TV this week for the opening of Season Five (Theme: Sextuplets Turn 5, Jon and Kate Aren’t Speaking). It drew a stratospheric cable audience of 9.8 million viewers — approximately five times the ratings for “Mad Men.”

This is a tradition that stretches back to 1971, when Bill and Pat Loud agreed to let PBS film 300 hours in the life of their “fun family.” By the time the cameras left, the Louds were en route to the cover of Newsweek and Pat had filed for divorce. But Americans have no sense of history and now people are practically begging to be turned into a TV series. A number of the current ones involve very large families — one terrifyingly named “18 Kids and Counting.”

Once science made it so much easier for people to have six, seven, eight babies at a time, it seems right that the world would come up with some occupation that would allow the parents to make a living without leaving the nursery. The Gosselins were reportedly paid at least $50,000 an episode, and the family has moved into a $1.1 million house on 24 acres in Pennsylvania.

I can’t help suspecting that the audience for “Jon & Kate” was initially drawn to the show by the same fascination that compels cable TV to keep producing documentaries about people who weigh 800 pounds. Wow, how does that work out, practically speaking? But reality shows, like any kind of institutionalized gossip, also offer the occasional useful life lessons.

One of the most important is that people who embrace 21st-century public life, whether it is lived on Twitter or TLC, aren’t allowed to complain about the downside. (“I did not sign up for public scrutiny of everything and neither did Kate,” Jon told the TV cameras grumpily and inaccurately.)

Recently, as the marriage continued to fray, Kate’s brother and sister-in-law appeared on CBS’s “The Early Show” to denounce the Gosselins and call for a law against children on reality shows. The kids actually seem well cared for and happy, although you can already imagine how the sextuplets will be tortured in the future by reruns of the potty-training episode. The relatives mainly seemed distressed by a family feud and compelled to work out their angst by going on national TV to denounce people going on national TV.

My favorite angle is the feminist one. When the world first met the Gosselins, Kate was a more-than-full-time-mother and Jon was going off to work every day as an “I.T. analyst.” (This is a position which is actually a very common occupation for men on reality series. Women tend more toward “Pilates instructor.”)

Then Jon, who appears laid back to the point of being comatose, lost his job. Kate, who was a tad obsessive in the house (she once berated her husband for breathing too loud), produced several best-selling books and made so many promotional tours that her husband found himself in the role of the major caregiver.

By the time they started their current season, Jon’s life crisis was a mirror image of the feminine “problem that has no name” that Betty Friedan wrote about in 1963. He complained that he loved his kids but felt trapped. (“It’s not what I chose, you know. It was kind of chosen for me.”) Kate couldn’t understand why he seemed to resent his “duties” when she was out working to support the family. And anyway, he had lots of household help.

There’s much to mull. But at minimum, when a listmaker of the future starts compiling the Ten Worst Multiple-Birth-Reality-Show-Meltdowns-of-the-Millennium, the Gosselins will have found a place in history.

I think I threw up a little in my mouth!

I admit, I did watch the show back when it was cute. Back when I admired this couple (yes, I know they did inflict this on themselves but I never had to struggle to get pregnant so I can't judge). Back when they looked like this:

I grew a little tired of the show early because I couldn't stand Kate. She treated her hubby like a child and I couldn't bare it anymore. Show over!

I knew it was only a matter of time before trouble would surface. You could see it on his face, the disconntent whenever she talk to him. Almost as if the very site of her made him want to throw up a little in his mouth!

Kate is a full blown celebrity now!

What a transformation!

This once anal Mom who once went through her house with a white glove to check for dirt after a maid had just cleaned, is hopping all over the US promoting her book.

And speaking to large crowds about the difficultys in raising multiples.

Life is a tad easier though since TLC came into their lives. They use to live in this:

But now they live here:

Nice Pad!

And then the rumors of Jon having an affair surfaced

And Kate aired their dirty laundry (for a price I'm sure).

Money makes you do crazy things.

And they will make more because people love dirt. Hence, some 5 million viewers tuned in to watch the season premire.

I think I just threw up a little in my mouth!

Working....

2009-05-28T14:15:00.000-07:00

Man, is this the stroy of my life. Since leaving Las Vegas (I think there is a movie by this name), I have had 1 day off:( No violins please. I really should be grateful I have a job.

Thankfully, work has a computer so when I am not busy delivering babies, I am searching for travel locations to here:

And here:

And here:

And here:

And finally here (note this is only a SMALL sample of my future destinations!)

So many places...so little time!

Great memories of Vegas and my Friends

2009-05-25T16:21:00.000-07:00

I know Linda has said this in her blog and I know Jules told me personally, but meeting these women was liking seeing old friends that I haven't seen in a while.
I knew we would all click, never a doubt in my mind. What surprised me was how sad I was to leave early. Broke. My. Heart!

No, I didn't sob all the way home but I did feel a genuine sadness, like you feel when you leaved loved ones that you know you will not see in a while. And, I knew they were going to hit the town...Without me!!

I know Linda posted some pictures but here is my pic recap for the 19 hours I was with my beloved buddies:)

How awesome to spend time with my friends!
We will definitely do this again and will most certainly have more time!!

Leaving for Vegas

2009-05-22T11:37:00.000-07:00

YIPPIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Positive thoughts needed!

2009-05-20T15:59:00.000-07:00

Asking for some positive thoughts and prayers for Tigger's hubby. This is him

He was diagnosed with esophageal cancer January 2008 and went through chemo, radiation and surgery. He was looking so good at the Christmas party.

He has not been feeling well for some time and had a f/u pet scan which showed a mass near his Aorta. It's too close to the Aorta for removal and he has had the max of radiation. Biopsy is scheduled for tomorrow but all feel it's recurrence.

This is devastating news. Please keep them in your thoughts and prayers.

Santa Barbara, Concert and a Wedding

2009-05-17T11:04:00.000-07:00

What an awesome time in Santa Barbara! The weather was sunny and warm.

We arrived at our cute B & B.

just in time to relax a little and have a snack before we headed out for the concert.

We had dinner where the concert was being held. Not super impressed by the main course but, our dessert was fab!

Then it was time for music!

So Awesome. I love this girl band. The music is intense, passionate and full of love.

We talk to Rene, the band member we had met in Laguna Beach. She remembered us and was genuinely happy we came. She graciously took a picture with us:)

The next morning we had a nice homemade breakfast at the B & B, carrot pancakes...Yum! The coffee, not so yum and MaMa needs her coffee in the morning.
The solution... Starbucks!

We had the privilege of running into one of the band members in Starbucks. We chatted for a few minutes and then we had to leave town. WAH!

After 6 looonnnggg hours in the car (traffic was horrid!) we picked up our boys for some pizza and fun. Lil dude scored a lot of tickets in the arcade and came away with some fun stuff.

Saturday evening, one of the nurse I work with got married. I was honored to be invited and excited as this was my first *social* outing with Mr. J!

The happy couple

Another Happy couple!

I went up for the bouquet toss assuring Mr. J that I NEVER catch it.

And I did;)

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The rest of the evening, I danced with my Mister ( that's MISTER, not SISTER) and had a most wonderful time.

Good thing, because now it's back to work and a busy, busy schedule, with one exception.... Vegas! Unfortunately, my time is greatly shorten there due to the shortage at work. But, I plan to make soem fabulous memories;)

Something to look forward too!!

2009-05-13T21:23:00.000-07:00

I have been working way too much. One of our Midwives broke her finger and we are already down 2 midwives! F!

I have been known to be a workaholic. I work hard so I can play hard. But, with a man in my life, I find that I'm not as eager to work a lot and I'm tired. yet, I have no choice to work now. We have our own practice and if one midwife calls off, is on vacation or breaks her fucking finger, the rest of us have to make up for it.

But tomorrow, tomorrow I have a day off. I actually have two days off.

In a row!! woo hoo!!

So, me and my Mister are going to Santa Barbara to see Blame Sallie, an all girl band, play at a local restaurant.

We met one of the band members when we stayed down in Laguna Beach (She is the second one on the right side). She gave us a CD and we loved it. I signed up for newsletter and saw this gig and decided we were going!!

We booked a cute B & B. Quiet. Romantic. Fun;)

Happy Mother's Day

2009-05-10T10:05:00.000-07:00

To all you Mom's, soon to be Mom's or Moms at heart:)

Since I am working today, Babygirl, BBoy,whiz kid and Buddy treated me to breakfast. Mr. J and lil dude came along and we had a very nice morning. After breakfast, I watched my future grandson, whiz kid so babygirl2 and BBoy could take their engagement pictures. What a fun day watching him and lil dude.

On a fashion note, I have my eye on these beauties:
Tory Burch Teagan Cut out Sandals $375.00

Manolo Blahnik Cage Boots at the reasonable price of $ 1165.00!!

Note:I really don't buy these pricey items. I only drool over them;)

Super Sunday

2009-05-03T20:57:00.000-07:00

Babygirl1 and hubby are in town. Always so good to have them *home*.

Babygirl1 and babygirl2 worked hard all day making the invitations for the wedding. I can't believe how incredibly talented my girls are. These invitations are SO beautiful. Better than most I have seen professionally. I will take a pic in a few days and post.

In the afternoon, we went to my Mister's place and he grilled some steaks.

The chef is hot isn't he;)

My most awesome kids!

We had such a great time.
Buddy blew us off for church and a girl! That's just fine though. If he'd been there, we would have run out of food for sure.

All I have to say is...

2009-05-01T15:53:00.000-07:00

YUMMERS!!!

Economic crisis hits home

2009-04-28T09:51:00.000-07:00

My son- in law was layed off last Friday. He is an Accountant in a major firm. He made it through the busy season and watched many co- workers let go. He thought he was safe.

Not so.

The kids have such a good attitude. He received a 2 months severance and babygirl1 provides the health care for the family. They have been financially responsible, have no credit card debit and both cars that are paid for. They will be fine but I worry. It's my job as a Mom.

In this tough economic times, I feel so lucky. I just got ANOTHER job, not losing my only job.

I hope hubby finds a job soon.

Happy Earthday!

2009-04-22T07:52:00.001-07:00

There's really nothing wrong with him!

2009-04-21T13:24:00.000-07:00

I manage to have a nice weekend despite my cold. I liquored up on airborne and I didn't get as sick as a lot of my colleagues. Whew!

I hung out with my Mister most of the weekend. Saturday our "boys" met and it was love at first sight. Buddy is exceptional with kids and little dude is no exception. They bonded over wii and the swimming pool. It was a warm, sunny day, perfect for our activities. I wish I could post a picture but I don't feel comfortable to post a picture of him without his dad's okay. I will tell you though, he is a stunner!

Later that day, I drove buddy to the theater so he could see a movie with his friends. He says to me on the drive:

"Mom, I like Mr. J. i hope you marry him."

Me:Umm, I'm glad you like him but, it's only been 4 1/2 months.

Buddy:Well, you are older so don't wait too long.

Me: I should probably wait for him to ask me though.

Buddy: Mom, this is 2009, girls ask that kind of stuff. And, there's really nothing wrong with him so don't wait.

There's really nothing wrong with him!

Wisdom of a fifteen year old boy.

Since not much is going on...

2009-04-16T10:58:00.000-07:00

I thought I would post some pics. Some you may have seen, some not.

I feel so blessed to have such wonderful kids and that my girls have found awesome men to compliment them.

I also feel so fortunate to found my Mister. I so believe in fate. I didn't want to go to the Medical staff party. I was sick and felt like shit. He didn't want to go either. But, we both showed up.

Fabulous:)

I think I was at a turning point in my life. I had been alone for 3 years. I had grown into a very self reliant, mature woman. I do believe I was close to the point where I would be undateable. I was becoming to set in my ways, too in dependant.

I don't know if you all remember, but I was hesitant and didn't think he was for me in the long term. I had a list of all the things I wanted in a man. He had them all but he also had one that I didn't want.

A small child. I have raised my kids, enjoyed them and now I'm almost done. I have been able to take care of myself and enjoy life. I wasn't sure I could do it all again, especially a child I have not raised myself.

But then I realized that if I really love Mr. J that if I don't accept his son it's like not accepting a vital part of him, like his heart or a lung. I mean really! I know how much my kids mean to me.

I finally met little dude and it was love at first sight. Watching my Mister with his little guy made me love him even more. Little dude was slow to warm up but by the second encounter, he was talking my head off and asking ME to get him a drink.

I want to post his picture because he is so adorable but I will refrain.

I did this today...

2009-04-14T22:40:00.001-07:00

I know, I know. Late huh? But, I knew I wouldn't be getting any of this back:

So I wasn't in a rush.

I turbo taxed it and e-filed.

Done!

Vegas Breakfast Finale

2009-04-09T19:53:00.000-07:00

Time sure flies when you are having fun. This trip was FABULOUS! The conference was great and the time I spent with my Mister made me love him so much more. I have a deep respect for this man and what he is enduring. i believe we became closer than close on this trip. Long, long talks and awesome....you know. I won't make ya jealous Jules;)

And speaking of Jules, I would just like to say a public blog THANK YOU to a woman I have only virtually met but love. How is that possible, I don't know. If you would have told me a year ago I would feel close to someone I've never actually met, I'd think you were crazy. But then again, I'm crazy;) Anyway, Loves my Jules and she knows why. The end!

My Mister and me met up with the Fam for breakfast.

Sad to part ways. I find the older I get, the more I want my family around. Especially true since Mom passed almost 5 years ago. We are much closer since then.

Tons of traffic on the way home stirred up my negative nellie. My mister is a positive dude so he is quick to snap me out.

Love my Man!!

Power of positive

2009-04-08T23:39:00.000-07:00

By nature I'm a negative person. Most people would not guess this trait of me though because I speak positivity.

I speak positivity while I'm thinking negative. How screwed up is that? I'll tell ya, it's wastes a lot of energy.

I decided years ago when my Mom was still alive that I'd do my best everyday to think and act positive. i listen to my Mom's negative talk too long and thought how unattractive it sounds. After all, no one likes to hear negative things all day. It's a real downer.

I ordered these cool affirmation cards and I thought I'd share some of them with you.

Dream:
All meaningful change starts in the imagination and works it's way out. Therefore, dream often... and dream big.

Bliss:
Never lose your child's heart.

Any help I can get to think in the positive is a plus.

I'm still a little cynical. Don't hold it against me:)

I think I'm in.....

2009-04-07T07:30:00.001-07:00

LOVE!

And LUST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

More Vegas fun

2009-04-06T18:54:00.000-07:00

Saturday after class, my big bro G came to town with his wife and daughter. My sis was also there with her hubby.

We met at the Venetian and ate the Grand Lux cafe. Good food with great company. I haven't seen my big bro G. in 6 months and my Sis in 5 months so it was a great night!

Little C and Beauty queen.

Babygirl1 and hubby

Big Bro G and Crazy girl

Sis and hubby D

Hot and Hotter (as Jules as dubbed us. Still have not decided who is who)

After dinner more photo ops.

We were going to walk the strip but Crazy girl has a broken foot and my Sis was too tired so we all called it a night.

Well, sort of. I took my Mister to the black jack table and he won $200.00.
Yay, a little closer to those boobs:)

Vegas Fun, oh Yes!!

2009-04-03T10:26:00.000-07:00

I played hooky today. I woke up with a sinus headache. I think it is all the casino smoke.

Slept in with my man. I needed that.

We went to see Zumanity last night. What a kick. The sexy cirque du soleil show is fantastic and well....full of sex. What they make some of the audience do is so amusing. We had a great time.

After the show, Mr.J tried his luck at the black jack table. We have a deal that if he wins big, I get my boob:) I was hoping I would bring him luck.

No such luck:) I don't gamble much. I could never bring myself to dump loads of money in a machine. If I have that kind of money I would rather buy an expensive purse, shoes or clothes.

We headed to the 64th floor to a club with amazing views of the strip.

We didn't stay long. We were both hungry so we headed to a cafe for a light bite.

I will leave you with some fun photos. We are having a great time!!

Missing Travel girl

2009-04-01T19:57:00.000-07:00

I've been missing from the blog world. Just too much going on right now to find the time to blog.

I'm in Vegas for a class. I will be blogging some of my trip, promise.

Babies

2009-03-28T07:33:00.000-07:00

I delivered little M 5 months ago and his Mommy just sent me the pics! She is a friend of mine, so I cut her some slack:)

Enjoy.

Weekend Review

2009-03-22T23:02:00.001-07:00

I have been such a blog slacker but for a damn good reason.

I worked 122 hours in 2 weeks!! I was emotionally and physically drained. I AM happy to have a job so I'm not complaining, just tired.

I had a fun weekend though. Buddy is on Spring break and with his Dad so it was a weekend with my Mister.

Friday night we head out to dinner with his previous co-workers. It was hard to leave the job because of the wonderful people who made up his team. It was good for him to see them. I think he has been a little depressed so this definitely boosted his spirits.

Saturday afternoon we took off to Laguna Beach and stayed at a fabulous B & B called Casa Laguna Inn. I had been there a few years ago but by myself. I always wanted to return with someone. It's so romantic.

The view from our front door.

I heart this place. We arrived just in time for wine and cheese hour. Later, we head for dinner at a bar type restaurant. Live band + me = dancing!! i love to dance and so does Mr. J. So. Damn. much. Fun.

Slept and and ate the most incredible breakfast I've ever had. I heart this place!!

As we were leaving (it was hard to leave this place), our neighbors were also checking out. I noticed she had a guitar so I asked if she had a band. And she does!

Blame Sally is an all woman band. They are based out of San Francisco but was in the area for a concert. I had never heard of them but after chatting for 15 minutes, I found myself asking for the web site. She offered us a CD and I took it!

And WOW! The music is awesome! If you love music, look them up at www.blamesally.com

We spent today strolling the beach shops of Laguna Beach.

I bought a few items that will come in handy for our next trip. I have a class in Las Vegas the beginning of April. Mr. J is tagging along. I'm not sure it will be much fun for him as I will be in class all day but some of my family is coming to town so he will get to meet them. I justified my purchases..after all, I'll be in Vegas again in May so I really need some party clothes;)

I had such a nice, fun weekend.

Mr. J says he did too;)

Tougher day yesterday

2009-03-17T22:05:00.000-07:00

When it rains, it pours!

Worked Sunday, busy, busy day. The night and wee morning was no better.

At 1:07AM I delivered a baby that was very, very sick, her Mother had an infection of unknown origin.
Totally gut wrenching.

When I left work yesterday, the baby was still critical. The parents heartbroken, I was a mess.
Emotionally exhausted, I drove the hour home and cried all the way. This is when I don't like my job.

I had to come back to work this morning and I am thrilled to report that the baby is way better and expected to make a full recovery. She was delivered in time to treat the infection already raging in her tiny body while she was still in her Mom.

I spent time with them this afternoon and cried tears of joy. Tears because she came in when she did. Tears because I kept her. Tears because she went fairly fast. Tears because the baby is better. Tears of relief and joy!

This is when I love my job.

Tough day

2009-03-14T10:44:00.000-07:00

I woke up this morning not feeling myself. Many things have been going on that I have not blogged about, mainly because it's way too personal.

I have some tough decisions to make, many issues to review and resolve. I'm feeling alone and I don't want to face what I know I need too.

Fuck!

I know I will eventually get through it, I just don't want to walk the journey. Atleast not today.

Fun pictures.

2009-03-11T20:09:00.000-07:00

Some fun pictures taken the day after I got home from Costa Rica.

I missed him. A lot!

I've fallen!

I know I said I didn't think this relationship was for the long term but now, now I don't know. What I do know is I love being with him and miss him when we are apart. I love talking on the phone with him and I am NOT a phone talker. I love his gentle and strong hug. I love that when I've had a not so good day he listens.
He opens my car door..even when I am driving.

So many things I love about this man, a few I certainly could do without but we are working on those together.

I'm not an easy woman and I have clearly become more independent with age and because I've been alone for 3 years. He must really like me to hang out with me and out up with some of my "not so good" qualities.

Perfect individuals we are not but maybe, just maybe we are perfect for each other. Only time will tell.

September wedding

2009-03-08T21:20:00.000-07:00

Babygirl2 and Bboy with marry September 6, 2009.

I have mixed emotions regarding the wedding. I so wish she would finish school before taking the plunge but she wants to do it now. We have talked, at length about marriage and struggles. She watched me struggle through school while working and raising kids. She thinks she can do it so I give them my best.

Man I feel so old. After all, June of 2007, babygirl1 married her high school sweetheart.

Babygirl1 lived with me up until the day she married. She and hubby finished college and married the next year. I wanted the same for babygirl2 but she has her own ideas. thank you to LindaLou who's' blog today helped me to feel better about this marriage.

The girls and me are great friends and I love our relationship. I will miss babygirl2 when she marries just as I miss babygirl1.

Letting go is NOT one of my strengths!

Happy Birthday MaMa!

2009-03-04T18:52:00.000-08:00

Mama would have been 82 years old today.

Happy Birthday Mama. I miss you more than you know!

Manuel Antonio, Costa Rica

2009-03-03T11:02:00.000-08:00

Good-bye Monteverde. I so loved this place, but it's off to the beach! Yippee.

Finally! Sun, warm weather. When I was decided on a trip months ago, I wanted to go somewhere tropical, somewhere warm. I thought Costa Rica fit that description.

NOT!

Until now. It's Sunny, warm and humid. I stayed in The Falls resort. Very tropical, very romantic!

Too bad I was alone. The resort is owned by an American couple. They bought the resort a year ago and moved from Colorado. Many Americans in Manuel Antonio. Property is quite cheap so if you are looking to relocate to another Country, this is definitely the place.

Decide to walk to the beach. Nice walk, down hill to the beach. Up hill back.

Downside of traveling alone: can't leave your belongings unattended so no swimming in the ocean. F!

The walk back prove to be a little more challenging then expected. Me + Humidity = lightheaded. Yep. had to sit on the side of the road for a short time before I felt well enough to continue. Took these pictures as I sat.

Got back to the hotel and saw a white face monkey eating bananas off the tree.

So awesome.
Hit the bed early. I have a hike in the morning.

Monteverde,Costa Rica Days 5&6

2009-03-01T11:27:00.000-08:00

Woke up early to catch my shuttle bus to Monteverde. This was, by far, the most interesting transportation and most uncomfortable.

Shuttle bus took us to a boat that transported us across Arenal lake so we could catch another shuttle bus. OMG, the road to Monteverde was wet, muddy and ROUGH. To make matters worse, I was sitting on a fold out seat and I was hurting. We were bouncing all over as the road has many holes. On the way, we saw some parts of the road that had just collapsed. Needless to say, it fucking freaked me out.

Stopped at a coffee plantation for a rest. Oh, did I mention that the total time to get to Monteverde is 6 hours?!?

The coffee bean is inside the red fruit. It's white until roasted.

Finally arrive at the hotel. One word....AWESOME!!!!

My room overlooked the gulf of the Pacific ocean. I'll post a picture later in this blog as on the day I arrived, there was hurricane force winds and rain. Awful combo but I made the best of it. The room more than made up for any wacky weather!!

Decided to take a taxi to town to eat dinner. Took the front desk recommendation and end up at Morphos.

I was the only customer for my entire meal. I was just about ready to pay my bill when a gentleman walked in. He struck up some conversation about the weather and than asked if I was dining alone. I told him I was about ready to leave and he asked if he could join me until I did.

I stayed through his whole meal!

Murray is a retired Psychiatrist who bought a one way ticket to Costa Rica so he would have no time constraints. He is 72 years old and looks like he is in his mid fifties. he has a partner at home but, from our conversations, not the best of a partnership. As we ended the night, he asked if we could have dinner the next night. I agreed. The picture is actually from the next night, but I'll post now.

Nice man. I felt he wanted me to stay the night with him but that wasn't going to happen!

Day 6:

Woke up early (again) to hike the cloud forrest. Such a beautiful forrest.

We had a rare experience to see the Quesal bird. this bird is endangered, only 2000 left. Originally from Guatemala, they migrated to Costa Rica because Guatemala no longer has any wild avocado trees for them to eat.

This picture does not do this bird justice. It's a big bird with a very long tail. The colors are so vivid, green and red!

After the hike, I grab a cup of coffee in a cafe. They have hummingbird feeders and I caught some great pics.

Went back to the hotel and decided to walk back down towards the forrest to alittle coffee shop I saw on the way back to the hotel.

Spent 2 hours here, drinking coffee, eating and reading. I loved it!

Walked back to the hotel with theses amazing views to keep me smiling.

Ended the night having dinner with Murray.

Leaving tomorrow for my final destination: The Beach! Warm weather at last!!

Costa Rica Continue...And Mr. J update

2009-02-23T18:41:00.000-08:00

Cano refuge continue.

I was asked if I swam in the water. That would be a negative:)

Cano refuge was an all day event so I pretty much went back to the hotel and chilled out. I didn't have to get up early the next morning so I decided I would go into town before my afternoon hike.

Day 4:
Still pouring down rain. Considered building an ark but hey, I'm on vacation.

Saw a Toucan on the hotel premises.

Took a taxi into town. Walked around the small town, La Fortuna until I was soaked (didn't take long) and decided to grab a cup of coffee (or two) in this cute shop.

met three brothers traveling together and chatted with them for 2 hours. They had just come from the coast, volunteering their time in a Marine center to help the in dangered leather back turtles. Great time with them.

Taxi back to the hotel for my afternoon hike.

The hike was disappointing and very, very wet.
After freezing my ass off, we went to the hot springs to soak our cold, wet bodies in some warm water. Felt very nice but I sure missed my Mister!

Made it back to the hotel to find this:

I leave in the morning for Monteverde, the cloud Forrest.

A little update on Mr. J. Things are going well between us. I'm learning to relax a little and not trying to figure it all out. While gone in Costa Rica I missed him so very much so I know my feelings are deeper then I thought.

The issues he has, are not with me. He is the Director of Pharmacy where I work and has been for almost 6 years. The last year has been tough for him there. Going through a divorce and keeping up with work has been a challenge. He has been telling me that he feels it's time to move on but with this economy he thought maybe he should stay put.

However, some things have happened over the last few weeks that made him change his mind. First, we were spotted hugging on hospital premises and he was warned about this. Funny thing is, I wasn't.

The other things, I will not mention since that is his private business. After consideration over the weekend and another job offer (with much less money) he decided to resign.

It's so sad to see him leave there. His whole team was sobbing (and it's not a small team). How lucky his is too be loved so much. The hospital will have a difficult time to find a qualified replacement. His shoes are hard to fill.

Thank you all for the positive thoughts. He had a tough weekend but today, he looks relieved. He will take a little time off and start his new job next month.

As for us...I'm all smiles:)

Day's 3 & 4 Arenal Costa Rica

2009-02-23T07:15:00.000-08:00

Sorry for being a blogger slacker. Many, many things going on with Mr. J. Most very good, but a few things pretty awful. Please keep him in your thoughts friends.

I don't have much time as I need to get to work so I will let the pictures do the talking.

Day 3:
Another early morning and off to Cano wildlife refuge. Tourism is way down. Good for me, not so good for a Country who relies heavily on tourism.

Took a boat ride down the river towards Nicaragua and saw many birds, howler monkeys and crocodiles. We were able to get pretty close to the wildlife as the river is empty!!

I'm out of time friends. I will finish tonight and catch up on all the blogs!

Moments like this

2009-02-18T21:06:00.001-08:00

I actually get paid to bring beautiful babies like this one into our world.

Life is good!

Back to work

2009-02-18T13:32:00.000-08:00

I returned to work today so my trip postings will have to wait until tomorrow.

I love my job and with every vacation I am actually excited about returning to work.

Until this time.

We had some work drama before I left so I wasn't anxious to return to the situation. Seems, though time as smooth things out some and tension is less. Seriously though, why is it that when you work with a bunch of Woman there is so much drama?? At times, I feel like I'm in high school.

I believe this round is over but I'm sure there will be more.

As the gurney turns:)

Arenal Costa Rica Day's 1& 2

2009-02-17T11:01:00.000-08:00

I'm so sorry for my slacking off on my trip. Things were a little crazy when I got home. Turns out when you spend 10 days away from home, there is a lot of shit to do when you get back:(

I arrived later then expected in Arenal due to my 3 hour delay in Miami. I basically checked into my hotel, which are actually cute Villas, and collapsed for the night since I was to do my Zipline tour in the AM:)

February 4:

Woke up early so I could eat breakfast and check out the grounds.

Villa de Travel Girl

Hotel grounds.

I ate breakfast and my transportation arrive to take me on the Canopy tour (Zipline).
Saw an entire family of raccoons crossing the road. My driver pulled over so I could take a shot.

This was the only time I saw the volcano. Did I mention it rained the ENTIRE 4 days I was in Arenal? And I'm not talking a little rain. Nope. I'm talking Monsoon rain.

Arrived for my Zipline and was quickly befriended by a couple, Joe and Mary, and later would join them for dinner.

Gearing up:

There was about 13 in our group. They load us in a tram and took us to the top of the canopy. It was really raining so I only took a few shots.

They explain the lines and position you should hold while zipping 250 feet above the Forrest. We got to practice on 2 small lines. I felt good and was pumped to go.

Once you go across this line, there is no turning back. The group leader asked if anyone wanted a taxi. This means, did anyone want one of the guides to ride with them?

One woman quickly shouted "Yes!"

I was thinking to myself, what a wimp. That is, until I watched her zip across.

She looked soooo tiny going across that line. Panic struck, and I suddenly, I NEEDED a taxi.

Turned out to be the best move. It was raining so hard and the wind had started to pick up. Position is so important so you do not spin out of control or stop in the middle of the line. Going across on your own, the rain pounded your face and you had to keep your eyes closed. The only experience the was thrill of the ride, no scenery.

But, with my taxi, I saw everything! He tuned me to the side so I could view the Forrest. AWESOME!!!!

Great fun.
After the canopy, Joe and Mary offer to pick me up at my hotel for dinner. I went back to my hotel and had a disappointing mud massage and read a book until dinner time.

I met more people this trip then any other trip. Joe and Mary are from Maine. Great food with great conversation. People that you have only just met but feel you known for years.

Perfect close to this most fabulous day!

Home!

2009-02-13T17:52:00.000-08:00

I got home last night. I'm so glad to be home. The last few days of my trip were quite lonely. I had an amazing time though and met a lot of fantastic people.

I will post this weekend with pictures and catch up on all the blogs. i have to catch up with my kids and, of course, my Mister. i missed him more then I thought.

Missed you all and can't wait to catch up!

Greetings from Costa Rica!

2009-02-05T14:21:00.000-08:00

So, I have only been here 2 days and already I missed you all so much, I had to say hi.

My trip got off on a sour note which always makes me a little nervous. I'm, by nature a negative person but I self talk a lot so I can turn it around.

Landed in Miami at 445am and didn't take off until 1200pm! Originally, I had a 4 hour layover that turned into 7 hours due to mechanical problems. Sat on the plane for 1.5 hours. We deboarded,*never a good sign*, for 1.5 hours.

My negative Nellie was having a party in my head but thankfully I met some cool guys who were so damn funny, my positive penny was prevailing.

Landed in Costa Rica at 3pm and my driver was there to pick me up. Whew!

My driver, Roberto was awesome. I was his only passenger and he waited 3 hours for me. I was so hungry so we decided to get something to eat. Interesting conversation in broken Spanish and broken English.

Arrived at the hotel 6pm. This is when it dawns to me that I'm not really on a tour. Talk to the hotel tour operator who tells me that I'm on my own just everything booked through the agency.

I'm totally fine with this. It's been an amazing 2 days so far and I will share more later. Computer access is limited and people are waiting.

The meaning of a "key"

2009-02-01T17:16:00.000-08:00

After my sad morning, I ran some last minute errands and picked up some necessities for Costa Rica. Jules left me a comment that she can't believe it's Costa Rica time!

Neither. Can. I!
It's not like me at all to leave things to the last minute but between working, babygirl1s' visit, and my Mr. J time, the trip literally bolted out of nowhere.

After my errands and dinner with Buddy, I made my way over to Mr. J's. He has been working a ton too in preparation for State inspection. He also moved out old furniture yesterday and had the new stuff delivered. My point to all of this, is that when I finally got over to his place last night he was asleep! I was disappointed but hid my emotion because I knew it was immature.

I wanted him to go to Walmart with me (note: I NEVER go to Walmart. I'm a Target girl but I couldn't find a travel alarm clock at Target so I had no choice) but he was pretty wiped out. As I was walking out, I told him to leave the door unlocked for me and as I turned around to say "see ya" he handed me this:

A Key.
He then said to me "You have the key to my heart so I want you to have a key to my place."

I said ABSOLUTELY NOTHING! I couldn't digest it that fast. I just took the key and walked out the door.

Call me a baby but, I cried all the way to Walmart. Not because I was so touched he gave me a key to his place AND his heart. No. I cried because I spent 5 years with VIP and never got a key to his place. I only had a garage door opener that I would return when I was not staying there.

I cried because the man I loved with every ounce of my body, never let me have a key to his heart that was locked tighter than fort knox.

I thought about this man, Mr. J who told me 2 weeks ago that he has never felt so connected with a woman as he does with me. I thought about how, at the time, I thought the same but didn't want to tell him and admit it completely to myself.

Lastly, I thought about a post I read on Linda's blog about baggage we have from past relationships that inevitably carry over to the present one. Can I ever let myself love anyone again?

Sadly, I know that I'm so afraid to let go, so afraid I will get hurt. My gut tells me that Mr. J, for the long term is not the guy for me. His baggage is excessive and I'm don't think long term I can do it. I'm honest, brutally and he accepts it.

But, I have this fucking key and it moves me deeply. In my world, a key is a big deal. I have only handed out one key and I think you all know who had it and the way that turned out.

I looked up "key" and here are some interesting definitions.

*A means of access, control, or possession.

*A vital, crucial element*

This last meaning is the one that I totally relate too. It means a lot for one to give a key to their home, their secure ground. It means that they trust you and feel safe with you. And, although I'm deeply touched,I'm scared to death.

When I came back, I told him my fears, the huge significances of a key. He just pulled me close and said "It's OK baby. Let's just enjoy the moment. That's really all we have. We will figure out the future as it unfolds."

Is it really that simple? I'm the girl who wants everything figured out before it happens.

Maybe that's the problem.

Beautiful but sad day in Yucaipa, California.

2009-01-31T13:39:00.000-08:00

The past few days the weather has been absolutely amazing. Beautiful, sunny warm days and cool nights. Sorry to all my friends who have the cold, snowy weather.

Babygirl1 left this afternoon. I'm getting a little better, not blubbering for long periods of time. It was hard to see her go though.

This morning we took advantage of the beautiful day and took Sophie for a walk. My Sophie is a rescue dog so she is a little neurotic. She doesn't like to walk long distances with just one person, so this week she has had a lot of exercise.

I am now busy getting ready for Costa Rica. I am essentially packed, just need to fine tune. I work tomorrow and leave Monday night on a red eye. I hope to blog some over there but still not sure what kind of free time I have.

Happy weekend!

Hair Pics

2009-01-28T20:48:00.000-08:00

Thanks to my blogger friend "J" who was also my SSS, I learned how to send my phone pics to my e-mail!! I love these young kids who know more than us old folks;)

The FOOT of hair all bundled up. Did you know that they have to cut the hair dry?

And after.

isn't she gorgeous? She is such a beautiful girl inside that her outside shines.

Thanks again "J". You are awesome.

Babygirl1 Visits

2009-01-28T07:07:00.000-08:00

Babygirl1 is in town for a whole week! She is on track break for teaching for 4 weeks and I have the pleasure to spend one of those weeks with her!! Time is already moving to quickly and before you know it, I'll be crying like a baby when she goes home.

Babygirl1 has been growing her hair out so she can chop it off and donate it to cancer pts. Yesterday was the day and she chopped off a FOOT of hair to donate. Babygirl2 has done so in the past as well. Makes a Mama feel so proud that she has raised such considerate, beautiful women! I wish I had my camera but I only had my phone to snap pics. I need to get a USB cable so I can download them.

I hope everyone has an awesome Tuesday!!!

Mr. J's Birthday

2009-01-25T21:53:00.000-08:00

It was my Mister's birthday yesterday. I'm really into birthday celebration. It's the one day you can claim as your own. The one day to celebrate you!

Celebrate we did. I showered him with gifts and helped him shop for furniture. The evening brought a romantic dinner at Mario's Place and some....Fun;)

Highlights.

We started with these divine Scallops. YUM!

Lamb chops for Him, pasta for me. Both absolutely phenomenol!
r>r>

I sang him Happy Birthday in my best Marilyn Monroe imitation;)

I still don't know where this relationship is going but I do know this.

I am having an amazing time;)

Fashion Thursday

2009-01-22T14:32:00.000-08:00

This week's loves!!

Carolina Herrera One Shoulder dress: $2290.00

Manolo Blahnik Satin High Heels: $ 575.00

Christian Louboutin sculptural satin clutch: $795.00

*Sigh*

Spa Day

2009-01-21T22:03:00.000-08:00

Working waaayyy too much so I have spending money in Costa Rica. I refuse to complain. I have two jobs while others have none!

Spa day was simply Fabulous with a capital F! I'm a Spa virgin and was totally blow away by all the pampering. A little pricey, so this kind of pamper will be rare!

Highlights:

Room service in the morning. Nothing special but Fab coffee. And great friends:)

The beginning of pampering.

I wish my bathroom looked like this!

Relaxing.

Lunch time.

Inside the spa.

I fell hard for my massage girl. The things she could do with her hands. Wow.
It was such an awesome day and ended far too quickly.

Just another day with great friends.

Historic Day

2009-01-20T06:26:00.000-08:00

I am so excited and emotional .
This Country is in such a mess. I feel loads of sympathy for President Obama as he makes the almost impossible, possible. Please have patience dear friends, as it will get worse before it gets better. But, I think he can turn this Country around.

I have Faith Mr. President!

And, on a funny note:

Virtual shopping

2009-01-15T11:31:00.000-08:00

I have always loved to shop. I love to shop for just about anything. My fav though is clothes, shoes, handbags and make-up.

Since I'm a Sex and the City junkie, my fashion knowledge has increased. I buy InStyle regularly and I'm glued to project runway. I also cruise the Internet and drool over fashion.

I'm so loving these items this week.

Roberto Cavalli Sheath dress. $1495.00

Paired with these stunners, Christian Louboutin platform cage sandals: $995.00

And, of course, the purse: Prada jeweled clutch $1295.00

I so need a better job.

Or a Sugar Daddy;)

By the way, I'm going on a little girlfriend getaway to a winery/spa after work tonight. Fun post to follow:)

Busy blunder

2009-01-13T13:35:00.001-08:00

It's amazing how little time I have now that I'm dating Mr. J.
He has thrown my blogging hours into minutes:)

Besides my Mister, I started running again which has kicked my ass! Since my sleep time has decreased due to my late night dating and now running, I have been eating my breakfast in the car. This morning, I forgot something in the house, so I sat my cell phone on the center console of my car and ran in the house.

I was enjoying my music, my muffin and was about to drink some soy milk and notice a silver object in my soy milk. WTF!! I admit, it took me about 10 seconds to realize it was my fucking cell phone!!

It's history. My cell phone is on it's way to cell phone heaven.

I'm even more screwed because I don't know most peoples phone numbers. I have them programed in my phone so I never bothered to memorize them. Double F!

So, before I see my Mister, I have to get a new cell phone. UGH, it will probably cost a fortune as I'm not due for up grade.

Triple F!!

Grand dog Mack

2009-01-08T09:51:00.000-08:00

Here's my new bundle of slobber, my grand dog Mack. He is so cute and playful.
No grand babies in my future for a while.

Have a fabulous day!

Viva Las Vegas

2009-01-07T21:30:00.000-08:00

Finally, my Las Vegas recap.

The trip started with the fountain show in front of the Bellagio. For those of you who have not seen this show it is acompanied with music. The song this day was "This Kiss." not one of my favorite songs with this water show.

I've seen this water show like a hundred times. Still watch it.

Later that evening, we stopped to have a drink at Parasol in the Wynn hotel. Nice bar on the patio. I had a carnberry mojito and watched the light show.

Dinner at MGM Grand at Diegos.

The chips came with three different salsas. The one on the left was. so. damn. good!!

Entree of Cesaer salad and seafood pot. The seafood pot was pretty spicy but the fish was so fresh.

After dinner, we walked around to take in the sites.

And spotted a woman my age who looked waaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyy older in something even a woman half her age shouldn't wear.

Gives us cougers a bad name;)

The next day we did some shopping. Vegas has some serious shops that I only drool to shop.

And then it was Saturday night. The night for LOVE!

No photography is allowed but I manage to take a few of stage before and after.

And some in the lobby. This was not prohibited though.

Very good show but a little pricey!

The next day I had breakfast with babygirl1 and hubby at Has House a go go where the food is more that plentyful, the service impecable and the company fabulous!

Babygirl1 and hubby adopted a puppy so I have a grandpuppy:) Pictures later.
We said out goodbyes but not without a picture.

Thought provoking article

2009-01-06T14:11:00.000-08:00

I still have not bought an adapter for my new camera so my Vegas post is still on hold.

Hanging out with my Mister a lot lately. Enjoying him. A LOT.

We have some pretty intense conversations and one recently was about being alone. Although this was not always the case for me, I like being alone.

He subscribes to an email called the DailyOM. Interestingly, the day after our long, deep convo about *being alone*, the DailyOM sent him this e-mail:

All By Myself

When Isolation Is Ok
We all need time alone. Even those of us who are social butterflies need some time to ourselves. Solitude is necessary for meditation and quiet reflection. We also may choose to isolate ourselves when we are busy and need to meet a deadline. We may cherish time alone when we want to give ourselves over to art or music, lose ourselves in a good book, or delve into a personal project. Having time to ourselves allows us to focus completely on our yoga practice or get into the zone while running or strength training. Sometimes we need to be alone to simply do nothing but enjoy the sound of silence. Our alone time revitalizes and replenishes us, grounding us in our own company.

Yet, too much isolation, especially when our intention is to hide, withdraw, or not deal with the realities of our lives is not physically, mentally, or spiritually healthy. It is during moments like these when being in isolation takes us away from our lives, rather than enhancing it. If anything, too much isolation can create a buffer whereby we don’t have to deal with our problems. Sometimes, pushing ourselves to deal with our issues and be in our lives, rather than isolate, is one of the best gifts we can give to ourselves.

Also, just as it is important for us to have our "alone" time, we need to remember that as human beings, we are by nature social creatures that thrive on human contact. Our lives cannot occur in a vacuum, and we cannot fully live in this world without interacting with others. Consider using isolation as time spent for rest, reinvigoration, and personal growth. Isolation can then not only empower you, but it can allow you to return to your work and your relationships restored and ready for life.

Love it! After being *alone* for 3 years, I am comfortable in my own skin. I completely enjoy my own company and don't feel at all lonely during this time.

Mr. J, on the other hand, doesn't like to be alone. I'm not sure if it's because he is going through a tough time now or is this his make up. Statistically, after a break-up, men are back in a relationship in 1-3 years. Women, 3-6 years.

Interesting.

Coming Attraction: Vegas blog!

2009-01-05T06:48:00.000-08:00

OK. I got a new camera in preparation of my upcoming trip to Costa Rica. Awesome camera. Takes excellent, clear, vibrant pictures. One small problem though.

My adapter to download the pictures is not compatible with the disk. F!!

I'll pick one up at Target tonight.

Vegas bound.

2009-01-01T16:26:00.000-08:00

I'm leaving for Vegas early tomorrow morning for two days of fun and relaxation.

happy New Year!

Many days of recap

2008-12-31T09:44:00.000-08:00

This week has been busy,relaxing, miserable, entertaining and stressful all rolled in one. Yikes.

I will do my best to catch up.

December 25. Such a great day. For the last 3 years, my ex come over in the AM and the kids open their presents. It wasn't always this way but over the years we have become better friends. It makes for a much better holiday.

After presents, we mae a huge breakfast and gorge ourselves as if it was the last breakfast. Great morning.

After the kids left to go to the ex's family Christmas, I decided to make a huge pot of coffee and settle in for a Sex and the City marathon. I LOVE Sex and The City and have probably seen every episode 5 times and I never get sick of it. It was shaping up to be such a fabulous day until that evening.

The pain started behind my eyes. I tried to ignore it but it progressively got worse. Within 2 hours I felt like my head would blow off. After taking a pharmacy of medications, my head was still exploding and now I was nauseated from taking too much Excedrin and Motrin. Not much sleep which only made the situation worse.

December 26:

Finally fell asleep about 5am only to wake up at 6am with the third world war being fought in my head. I dragged my ass to work were I barely survived. Thank God it was a light day so I was able to get to Urgent Care.

I was not only in pain but was so disappointed because I wanted to spend time with babygirl1 and hubby. I gave it my best shot but the fioronal was not kicking in very fast and I was miserable. I did sleep better which was a relief.

December 27:

I had to work again today and Babygirl1 and hubby had to go home. My work is on their way home so they stop to have lunch. I was definitely feeling better and we had a nice but short visit. I so miss her and my tears flowed heavily when she left.

After work, I had my 6th date with Mr. J. I know I have not posted much about him because I'm still not sure where this will actually go. We are having a great time together. He is fun to be around and he makes me laugh. Unfortunately, there is a little too much baggage for me. So unfortunate as I really do like him.
I have been honest with him and made my intentions clear. He knows, too, that he is not really ready for long term. And it's OK with me.

Clearly, this is a rebound relationship. Even though my last relationship ended 3 years ago, I still have not fully recovered. Yes, I have grown tremendously. I am much more stable, secure and Independant. I am happy with the woman I have become. yet, there is a small piece of me that still mourns my loss.

Mr J is in the middle of a messy divorce. He has been married 24 years and letting go of that kind of history is difficult. I have been there myself and We talk about the healing process frequently.

This relationship has got me thinking. A lot.
I have learned so much from my last relationship. I have learned to use my head AND my heart so I can see the red flags instead of rationalizing them away.
I am a cautious person and do not trust easily. Even though I blogged about how many dates should I wait until I jump into bed, I already knew the answer for myself and I obeyed my head and not my loins:)

I don't know how long this relationship will last. I had a dream the other night that he went back to his wife. In the dream, I was not angry but happy and relieved.

Maybe it's a sign.

Serious Sinus Infection

2008-12-29T06:36:00.000-08:00

Oh Gawd, what an awful 4 days this has been.

Christmas night I started with a serious headache that would not go away. Started behind my eyes and quickly worked it's way through the top of my head and then to the back of my head. Serious pain.

I didn't sleep much that night and I had to work the next day. Being the responsible person that I am (I hate this quality sometimes), I went to work.

The moon must have been in the right place the night before because my patient load in the clinic was super light. By mid afternoon, I had the chills, green shit where it didn't belong, a headache that put any hangover headache I have ever had, to shame and a temperature of 101 degrees.

After clinic, I went to urgent care. My luck was still running strong because I didn't wait long at all. The drive there was a different story. My head felt like it was going to blow off and the sun rays were penetrating my sun glasses. It was unbearable!!!

I love urgent care Doctors. They love to hand out the drugs and get rid of you. The Doc. I saw was very generous. I got heavy duty antibiotic and some fiornal for my throbbing head.

I went to fill the prescription and decided to buy some more of Zyrtec D which is a decongestant. I don't know if any of you have bought decongestants lately but they ask to see your drivers license so they can enter your number into a computer to make sure you haven't been buying a bunch of decongestants to make methampetamines. UGH, the world we live in. Anyway, back to the story. The clerk looks at my license and says "Um, you license is expired."
F! How can that be. "they never sent me a renewal."
She told me " I'll just put 2012. License renewal is every 4 years right?"
I think she just felt sorry for me. I was looking pretty pathetic by this point.

However, now I feel sorry for myself too! I have to go to the DMV today and renew a license that has been expired for 1 month. Double F!!!!!

I will catch up tonight on my blogging. Many, many stories!!

Christmas Eve Cheer

2008-12-24T22:45:00.001-08:00

Babygirl1 and hubby are in town. It's so good to see them. I miss my babygirl1 terribly but so proud of all she has accomplished and the beautiful woman she has become.

We joined babygirl1 & hubby at hubby's parent's home (got that?) for some Christmas Eve cheer. There was tons of food, good wine and funny stories. Fun, fun night.

Babygirl1 baked all day and made these (the picture doesn't do them justice)
Red velvet and chocolate hazelnut cupcakes. YUM!

Hubby's Mom has many Christmas trees with different themes. Absolutely amazing. I only took a picture of the HUGE tree in the foyer.

Fun times but I was exhausted. I had a tragic event at work yesterday and I haven't entirely recovered. I'll post about it after the holidays.

I'm happy you're *home* babygirl1. Mama misses you!

Too damn tired

2008-12-21T21:58:00.000-08:00

to blog! I have been working way to much and I'm feeling it. It will get a little better after Christmas.

I hope everyone had a fabulous weekend!

Cost Rica trip

2008-12-18T12:29:00.000-08:00

I have so preoccupied by Mr. J that I haven't blogged about my scheduled trip to Costa Rica.

I had hoped girlfriend would accompany me but she can't afford to take time from work. Poor thing has 2 kids in college so money is tight.
i don't have a problem traveling on my own but it sure would have been nice to have company.

I like to travel independently meaning not with an organized tour group. But in some regions and especially being a single woman traveler, an organized tour is better. I did, however, for a brief time considering doing this trip on my own.

After much researched, I booked through a travel company based in Costa Rica called Costarica4me. They offer small groups, no more than 12 in a group. This is awesome because larger groups tend to scare off wildlife. This company has been fantastic and very helpful.

Here is a copy of my itinerary:

Darlene’s Costa Rica Getaway
Feb 3: Welcome to Costa Rica! Upon arrival to Juan Santamaria International Airport, you will be greeted by a Pacific Trade Winds S.A. representative. Private transportation will then be provided to the 4 Star Arenal Springs Resort & Spa located in La Fortuna. This fun little tourist town is located in the shadow of the imposing Arenal Volcano. During your stay, you will enjoy a Junior Suite equipped with your choice of two queen beds or one king size bed, A / C, fan, cable tv, phone, wireless internet, mini-bar, coffee maker, safe box, oversized bathroom with volcanic rock surroundings, hair dryer, and front patio providing an outstanding view of Arenal Volcano. Breakfast included daily. (Rental Car can be substituted for provided transportation. Please see below for difference in pricing.)
Feb 4: Today you will soar through the tree tops of the rainforest on your gondola style Sky Tram adventure. This is a comfortable way to view the wildlife that inhabits the canopy. After Sky Tram, professional bilingual guides will lead you through a series of zipline cables on your Sky Trek Adventure. The canopy zipline is a one of a kind tour which is Costa Rica's most popular adventure activity with thousands participating annually.

Feb 5: Today you will go on a river boat ride down Rio Frio in the wild Caño Negro National Park. A bilingual naturalist guide will point out the abundant wildlife, flora & fauna that call this park home. This reserve is another important sanctuary for a wide variety of endangered species. Lunch included.
Feb 6: You will go on an easy hike through the Rainforest, with a bilingual naturalist guide who will point out the abundant wildlife, flora & fauna. When you reach the clearing, you will be at the closest observation point to Arenal Volcano. Being the third most active volcano in the world, Arenal erupts every 5 to 10 minutes. After approximately 45 minutes of viewing, you will be able to visit the geothermally heated Baldi Hot Springs where you will be able to relax & bathe as Arenal erupts in the background.

Feb 7: Our famous Land-Boat-Land transportation to Monteverde. After crossing Arenal Lake which provides some of the best photo ops of the imposing volcano, you will be brought to El Establo Resort. During your stay, you will enjoy a Deluxe Room equipped with 2 Queen size beds with Orthopedic mattresses, Cable TV, Bathrooms with separate bath tub and shower, Safe Deposit Box, Refrigerator, Telephone, Coffee Maker, and Hair dryer. Breakfast included daily.
Feb 8: A bilingual naturalist guide will lead you on an easy hike through the Monteverde Cloud Forest Reserve. Your guide will point out and describe many endangered species, as well as educate you on the importance of sustaining this vital reserve. At an average elevation of 1,400 meters, this forest is home to numerous species of wildlife, unique to this area.

Feb 9: Transportation will be provided to The Falls Resort located in Manuel Antonio. This new resort offers a refreshing approach to luxury accommodations in Manuel Antonio. The resort is surrounded by lush tropical gardens and waterfalls, providing a serene environment and splendid views. During your stay, you will enjoy a standard Suite equipped with king size bed, full bath with large walk in shower, cable television with DVD, mini-bar, overhead fan, air conditioning, covered porch with sitting area and a hammock for relaxation. Breakfast included daily.

Feb 10: A bilingual naturalist guide will lead you on a tour of discovery through Manuel Antonio National Park. Along the way your guide will point out the abundant wildlife, flora & fauna. This park plays a vital role in the global environment as it is home to a wide variety of endangered species.
Feb 11: Today you will go on a Catamaran Cruise Coastal Adventure. This is a great way to possibly observe whales, dolphins & sea turtles. After cruising along the beautiful shores of Manuel Antonio, you will stop at a secluded beach to Snorkel above a Tropical, Coral Reef and enjoy a provided Hot Meal.

Later, private transportation will be provided back through the Cloud Forest of the Talamanca Mountains to the Grano de Oro. During your stay, you will enjoy a Superior room. All rooms are furnished in Tropical Victorian styles with wrought-iron beds and rich damask fabrics in three jeweled color schemes - navy, burgundy and forest-green. The art and furnishings are handcrafted by Costa Rican artists. No two rooms are alike. Private baths are blue and white Italian tile adorned with gleaming base fixtures. Breakfast is included daily.

Feb 12: Private transportation will be provided to Juan Santamaria International Airport scheduled to arrive 3 hours prior to your departure.
Pura Vida!

I can't wait to Zipline (canopy tour). Scare. The. Hell. Out. Of. Me.
And that is exactly why I'm doing it.

I have a travel journal and will write about my trip and then transfer when I get home.

BTW, still stuck at work but help is on the way!!

Craziness!

2008-12-17T18:34:00.000-08:00

It has been snowing ALL day and there must be 6 inches on the ground. Now, I know for you in the Midwest this is nothing. But, for Southern California? It's absolutely crazy!!!

The hospital has called an Internal disaster which means that nobody can leave! All except one nurse called in sick on the labor and delivery unit and hospital wide, they are 35 nurse short!!

I took tons of pictures with my cell phone and I will have a CD made so I can download to my computer so I'll post them in a few days.

I'm not sure I will even get home tomorrow. If not, I'll have to cancel my date with Mr. J!

Maybe that's a sign;)

Beautifil Snow

2008-12-17T11:21:00.000-08:00

I'm so glad I drove up last night to stay with a friend.

It's snowing.

And not just a little snow. It's really coming down. And it's absolutely beautiful:)

Wacky Weather

2008-12-16T18:50:00.000-08:00

It rained all day yesterday, so hard at times, I thought it would come through the roof. Snow level was down to 2000 feet so my route to work was closed. Thankful, I didn't work there yesterday.

I do have to work tomorrow and another Storm is on the way. I'm playing it safe and spending the night with a friend that lives close to work.

Not much new to report with Mr. J. Met him briefly for coffee on Sunday and we will have another date on Thursday. I'm still not sure about this guy. I was so excited about him.

And then we went on a date. I won't say his issue but they are there. I'll feel it out more Thursday.

Mr J

2008-12-11T09:20:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, I did my part to stimulate the economy.. I shopped for the perfect,just sexy enough outfit.

And I found it.

I took pictures last night but they are awful so you all will have to wait until later to see it. Oh, the suspense:)

I talk to Mr. J last night for over an hour after one hour of texting. He is hinting for sure about sleeping with me tomorrow night. I was tempted to keep it on that level but, I toned it down a notch. My head tells me to move slow. My promise land (thanks Jules) says another.

We met briefly for coffee this morning. He. Looked. Amazing.
Black cashmere sweater with grey slacks. Swoon.

When I left, I was both excited and scared. Shit, this will be hard but I know I have to do it.

Unless, of course, I don't think this will be a long term thing. I can then, break the rules;)

Mr J Update;)

2008-12-10T11:39:00.000-08:00

I have a date with Mr J on Friday night. He is taking me to a fancy smancy restaurant which is usually not my style but I'll let him impress me;) I'm going shopping today for the perfect first date, knock him dead outfit!

I'm excited. I have only been on one date since my spilt from VIP and that date was um.... BORING!

Mr J is far from boring which also has me a little concerned. I think my single friends know what I mean. So, I don't want to sound like I'm, well easy but, if he makes a move, how soon is too soon?
Girlfriend says three dates but she sooo never listens to her own advice;)

I have pondering this so long I'm freaking myself out. I need some more advice!

Help!

My SSS gift!

2008-12-09T21:45:00.000-08:00

As I posted a few days ago, I received my SSS gift but I was too sick to take pictures.

First, I want to thank my SSS for the nice gifts and to Georgie and crew for organizing this whole thing. It was fun to stalk my own SSS, get to know her in secret and then do some shopping. And it was exciting to get a package from someone I don't know filled with stuff she knows I like.

I still don't know who my SSS is. I've done a little investigating but not enough to figure it out. the package came from Louisiana. She was so kind to give me an easy hint: she is a obsessed with Twilight. look at the cute note:

Pampering for my feet after a long run. Loves! My feet adore these socks!

Best of all is my book! I have wanted to read this book but have not bought it. SSS suggest I read this book

While in here:

Sounds like a great combination!

Thank you again SSS. I will have to work harder to find your identity!

SSS gift.

2008-12-08T06:46:00.000-08:00

I got my SSS gift yesterday. Actually, I probably got it on Saturday but this cold has really kicked my ass!

I have to work today and I'm still not feeling very good. I will take pictures soon and post.

Thank you to my SSS! I got some really awesome things:)

Retreat, Party, Possiblities and an Earthquake.

2008-12-06T06:31:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, our Director and Manager put together a retreat for us Midwives. My manager, Red, has a nice condo in the middle of hell. I work in Apple Valley, a depressing Desert town with nothing much to do but watch the sand blow.

Anyway, Red lives up there, actually moved from Huntington Beach. She lives on a man-made lake and actually pretty and serene. During the retreat, my director, Southern Bell, looked out the window to see this really cool, light blue bird. Anyone know what kind of bird this is?

We spent the day reflecting, eating and making bath salts.

I gave up quickly on the bath salt project (can't you buy those) when my first attempt looked like coffee grounds and smelled like Vick's vapor rub. Hmmm, something told me that I wouldn't want to put them in my bath tub. The girls were so kind. They made some for me;)

After the bath salt extravaganza, we had to get ready for the Medical staff party. We all got dolled up for the big event.

I wasn't feeling well. I have a little bit of a cold so I wasn't really in the party mood. But, I popped some Advil and made the best of it. Good thing I did. I met someone.

Mr. J is a Pharmacist at the hospital but lives in the next town over from me. He is attentive, nice looking and smart. We chatted for about an hour playing the "getting to know you." I thoroughly enjoyed the conversation, never once looking at my watch (OK, I wasn't wearing a watch but you know what I mean). He didn't knock me off my feet but I was definitely interested.

However, there are a few issues.

First, he is getting a divorce and it will be final in January. A plus of this part is that they have been separated for 2 years. Negative. What took so damn long?

Second, he has 3 children the youngest is FIVE! UGH! I so don't want to start over. I have raised my kids, thoroughly enjoyed it. But my Babygirl1 is 25 years old and married. I'm looking forward to grand kids not step kids.

However, I am interest enough that when he asked, I gave him my number. He called me after I got home but I missed it. When I finally listen to the message, it was too late to call back. He wants to have brunch tomorrow but I have plans with girlfriend so it will have to wait till next weekend.

Here are a few highlight pictures.

Rockstar, Tigger and me.

Rockstar and her most amusing hubby.

And now for a pic of Mr. J. Ready?

Mr.J, me, Tigger and hubby

What do you think?

In the middle of the party, there was an earthquake. Rockin my world inside and out;)

Booked my flight...

2008-12-03T22:09:00.000-08:00

Now I need to find a tour in Costa Rica. I have it narrowed to two. I just need to make up my mind. Girlfriend can't go so I'm looking at tours.

I really didn't want to do a tour but I am a little nervous to be on my own in Central America. I have no problem traveling alone in Europe but I think I will feel better in Costa Rica in a group.

Decision time.

Funny story

2008-12-02T20:38:00.001-08:00

I am working so much this week so I don't have anything to blog.

I got this funny story in my e mail the other day. I especially love it because I am a nurse:)

You gotta love a good nurse.....A motorcycle patrolman was rushed to the
hospital with inflamed appendix. The doctors operated and advised him
that all was well,However, the patrolman kept feeling something pulling at
the hairs in his crotch. Worried that it might be a second surgery the
doctors hadn't told him about, he finally got enough energy to pull his
hospital gown up enough so he could look at what was making him so
uncomfortable.Taped firmly across his pubic hair were three wide strips
of adhesive tape, the kind that doesn't come off easily. Written in large
black letters was the sentence:'Get well soon....from the nurse in the
Jeep you pulled over last week...'

This is a true story now. I went to Midwifery school with a former ER nurse. She was driving with her husband in LA and they were pulled over for blown out taillight. Instead of giving a fix it ticket, the asshole cop (sorry if any cops are reading) made them get out of the car and sit on the curb. The cop told them they they were looking for a suspect that is Hispanic (her husband is Hispanic) for a domestic disturbance in Compton. Andrea told the cop "we are on our way home from Target, and we don't live anywhere near Compton." Andrea even told the cop she was a nurse and worked the ER and Assured the cop her husband could not possibly be involved in a domestic disturbance. He wouldn't listen, and made them sit there for 1 hour until a call came over the radio that they caught the guy.
He was STILL in Compton.

Andrea found out later that night at work, from another cop that the guy was on foot. The whole time! The cop who pulled them over was being an asshole. But, it gets better.

Andrea worked night shift in an LA hospital. So, 2 weeks after this incident, guess who rolls in with a prisoner? Yep! The asshole cop.

The prisoner was not hurt bad, required a few stitches. It's courtesy that the ER will see these pts. as soon as possible so the cop can leave. It was towards the end of his shift and he needs to get this dude out of there so he can book him and go home himself. But, when Andrea told her co workers that this was the asshole cop, he was treated with the same courtesy as he showed Andrea.

None.

It was decided by the Doctor that this dude, after his stitches, would need an x ray. Since it wasn't an emergency, he would have to wait until after all the urgent cases. When the cop complained and asked for some courtesy because he was at the end of his shift Andrea told him "You will get the same courtesy you gave to my husband a few weeks ago."

Andrea said they laughed their asses off watching him pout in the waiting room.

I wish I had that kind of power sometimes;)

Saturday matinee

2008-11-29T23:30:00.000-08:00

I decided to do something today that I had never done before.
I went to a movie. Alone.

Yep, I have traveled alone but I have never been to a movie alone.

I went to see The boy in the striped pajamas. A very disturbing movie about a German boy who befriends a Jewish boy in a concentration camp. Overall, the movie is just okay. The ending is quite disturbing.

After the movie, I went to Vroman's book store and decided on my next travel destination.

I sat in the bookstore for over an hour reading about Costa Rica. I'm so excited. I hope girlfriend will go with me.

If not, I will go.

Alone;)

Just Sophie and me.

2008-11-27T09:21:00.000-08:00

I'm spending Thanksgiving with Sophie. I picked up a pizza last night for our feast today:)

One of the labor and delivery nurses is due tomorrow and I agreed to deliver her. It's her third baby so I can't go far. Everyone else is in Las Vegas at Babygirl1 and hubby's house. Boo!

Post pictures of your feasts. I'll have a virtual Thanksgiving:)

Happy Thanksgiving!

No Pajamas in public!

2008-11-25T12:54:00.000-08:00

I went to the postal annex to mail my IRS payment(F!) and this dude in front of me was in pajamas AND slippers. Is it that fucking hard to get out of your pajamas and into some sweats? Geez!

I wanted to take a picture of him but resisted.

Something told me he would not be amused.

November 20, 1963 @ 3:50 am

2008-11-20T12:41:00.000-08:00

I was born:)

I'm Forty fucking five today!

My birthday is a big deal to me and I'll tell ya why.

My Mom ALWAYS forgot my birthday. Just couldn't remember.
First, I'm the youngest of eight. I have 5 older brothers (would have been 6 but he was born premature and died) and 1 sister. needless to say, my Mother expected a boy. Had a name picked out. So when I turn out to be a she, my Mother had no clue what to name me. According to my Mother, the nurse said:

"what are you going to name her?"

My Mother said: " I dunno."

Nurse: "How about Darlene, she is so Darling."

Mother: "OK."

Makes you well up with tears huh?

So, two days after I made my most forgettable entrance, another event happened that would further erase my birth from my Mother's brain.

President Kennedy was assassinated.

In all the years my Mother was alive, she wished me a Happy Birthday on
November 22. If it wasn't for my birth certificate, I'd swear that was my birthday.

I think I'll celebrate again, on November 22. just for my MaMa;)

Quick visit with my Big Brother

2008-11-19T16:17:00.000-08:00

My big brother was in Southern California for a few days on business. Due to both our work schedules, we could only squeeze in a few hours last night before he left for Washington D.C this morning.

I googled some restaurants close to LAX and found a winner: Pann.

Pann is a diner and been in business since 1958. breakfast is served all day so we both opted for breakfast.

The food was really good. We both had omelets. We decided to share so we cut our om lets in half and switched. I wish I had taken pictures but I was so excited to see Big Brother, I forgot.

I haven't seen Big Brother in 1 1/2 years. He lives in Utah were he is not a Mormon and one of ten who voted for Obama.

We talked so long, we ended up closing the place down. The Manager was kind to take our picture before she kicked us out;)

Even though we talk on the phone often, it was so good to see you Big Brother.
You are a rock in my life!

Fifteen Years ago Today...

2008-11-19T13:12:00.000-08:00

I found my honeymoon spot!

2008-11-16T11:42:00.001-08:00

Isn't this place FABULOUS?

Banyan Tree Resort in the Seychelles South Africa. God, I have dreamed of this place for like Forever. Not a place Travel girl can travel alone. It's very romantic.

Finding a honeymoon spot has proved much easier than finding a mate.

Girlfriend

2008-11-13T11:09:00.000-08:00

I spent yesterday with my best girlfriend. We don't see each other very much because we live so far away. We try to meet once a month,in Pasadena which is half way for both of us.

We met in Midwifery school. The shear hell of school bonded us like super glue. We have supported each other through the wost of times, divorce and death of parents and the best of times, kids graduation, baby girl1's wedding and fun vacations.

Check out girlfriend during the bouquet toss. She is the one in the green skirt and denim jacket. Impressive height! (She didn't catch it though. F!).

I love you girlfriend.

Here is to many more fabulous times!

Travel girl's Salzburg Summary

2008-11-11T21:30:00.000-08:00

Oh Salzburg.

Salzburg, a charming, pictureque city in Austria. I spent 3 days here which I felt was more than enough time. The city is so small, you can easily see the city in two days.

I took a train from Vienna to Salzburg. The train left at 8:05. On the nose.

The train was pretty empty and I had a compartment to myself most of the journey.

I took my own picture. What. A. Dork!

Beautiful scenary along the way.

I loved my hotel in Salzburg. The staff so friendly and the breakfast outstanding.
My room was damn cute and ya gotta love the twin bed;)

A walk through the city.

The hotel has a small bar. I met a couple from Australia and 2 couples from England. We sat around, drank and chatted about healthcare, politics and our travels. They were all suprised to learn that I traveled alone.

The Brits took pity on me and encouraged me to go with them on a tour of the salt mine.

I happily accepted.

Since I was a single, I sat in front of the small bus. Oh, but lookie what I saw.

New friends.

I got back in just enough time to do my tour to Salzkammergut. I was the only tourist on this tour. It was fabulous.
It's a gorgeous place but most shops were closed as they were taking a break before the busy Christmas market.

I was prepared for snow with clothing just not my shoes. What a dope huh?
I slipped so many times on my tour. F!
By the time I got back to the hotel, I was WAY over the snow!

The advantage to traveling off season is the cost is significantly lower.
However, you must be willing to put up with the weather.

Travel girl's star rating for Salzburg:
****

Now go out and see the world!

Travel girl in Vienna

2008-11-09T09:11:00.000-08:00

A year ago, at this time, I took my first solo trip to Europe. I thought in celebration of my one year anniversary, I would take you all on a walking tour through Vienna.

I hope you enjoy your trip;)

Single bed for a single girl.

The City.

The Stephansdom, the mighty Cathedral.

The Holfburg.

Schonbrunn Palace & Park.

The Belevedere Palace. This is a travel girl top choice. It's actually 2 imposing palaces. Originally served as the summer palace for Prince Eugene of Savoy is now a museum. Stunning architecture. The upper Belevedere houses Gustav Klimts' famous painting "The Kiss." To see this painting in person is amazing.

It also started snowing this day. It is the first time I had actually seen it snow.
Hey, I'm from California:)

Yummy desserts!

Getting around:

If you go:

I booked my trip through Europeandestinations.com
I highly recommend this travel site. Booking online is easy and efficent. If you prefer to talk to a real live person there is a 800 number. However, I did everything online and my trip was perfect.

Recommended travel guide books:

I used Lonely planet and Fodor's travel guide.
Fodor's has an excellent map, good walking tours and outstanding restaurant selections.

Vienna is a beautiful city. It's a richer city and the people and culture reflect this. the people are not the most friendly but not rude either.

I walked the city and got lost many times. The streets are a little confusing but once figured out, it's quite simple.

I ate lots of fabulous desserts, drank a lot of great beer and tasted a lot of exceptional food.

Vienna on travel girl's 1-5 star scale:
*** 1/2

Prop 8 defeated

2008-11-06T13:16:00.000-08:00

I am exhausted!

The election, training for the 1/2 marathon, running the 1/2 marathon and of course, work.

I have been so busy at work. My clinic days are long and my call nights even longer.

Yet, my spirit was high yesterday engulfed with Obama and our Nations' victory.
Then I saw the front page of The LA Times and I felt so sad.

It said:
It's Obama.
Decisive victory makes history.
In California, gay marriage ban takes early lead.

Prop 8 was later defeated 52.5% to 47.5 %

Victory should NOT be associated with this image.

The gay and lesbian community protested immediately and stated simply what this whole proposition is about.

I talk to a nurse last night that voted yes on Prop 8 and I asked her why. She told me that gay marriage is a set back for society and we can't tolerate such an act. She went on to say that gays should not be allowed to have children as they can't possibly raise a "normal" child because it's not a heterosexual union. The children would not have the opposite sex as a role model.

How can you respond to such ignorance?

The words such as "tolerate" and "allow."
The phrase "set back for society" and "such an act" deafened my thoughts.
And I thought of the LA times headline.

It's Obama.
Decisive victory makes history.
In California, gay marriage ban takes early lead.

Clearly we have come so far.

And hopefully we can go further. And remember the words of a gay man:
"We are human. We laugh, we cry, we love."

Civil equality for ALL!

What a Night!

2008-11-05T06:29:00.000-08:00

'This is Your Victory'

No matter how you voted, this election was historical. I admire those who waited in line for hours to cast their vote.

I watched nonstop election coverage breaking only to pick up Buddy from football practice. I didn't want to miss the moment when the President elect was announced.

And what a moment. My house Baracked the Victory!!

It was amazing to be apart of this election. I have never been so involved in an election. This election was different. Not a day went by that I didn't read about current events. On my way to work, I listen to news radio instead of music. This election was too important.

Emotions were high when President elect Barack Obama gave his acceptance speech in Grant Park. His speech was dynamic, strong and humble. I felt for him as this day, a great victory, could not be shared with his beloved Grandmother who passed away the day before. He has not even been able to mourn her loss.

John McCain gave an eloquent speech. He was gracious, quieting the crowd when they would boo.

I wish I had today off. Most at work here do not share my views and worse can't have an intelligent conversation without being attacked.

So I will celebrate in my heart.

And carry a HUGE smile:)

Vote!

2008-11-04T10:46:00.000-08:00

Baby2 was so excited as this was her first Presidental election!

Sexy Quotes

2008-11-03T22:30:00.000-08:00

Since i don't lead a very exciting life, I have absolutely nothing to blog.

Instead, I bring you sexy quotes.

"You sleep with a guy once and before you know it he wants to take you to dinner." Myers Yori

"Sex is more fun than cars, but cars refuel quicker than Men." Germaine Greer

"What matters is not the length of the wand but the magic in the stick."

"You never know a man until you know how he loves." Sigmund Freud.

"She's been on more laps than a napkin." Walter Mitchell

"Sex at age ninety is like trying to shoot pool with a rope." George Burns. (pre viagra!)

"Housework is like bad sex. Every time I do it I swear I will never do it again. until the next time company comes around." Marilyn Sokol

"Getting married for sex is like buying a 747 for the peanuts."

Good night ladies.

Loneiness

2008-11-02T06:21:00.000-08:00

I worked a 24 hour shift yesterday (still here and oh, I think it was actually 25 hours with the time change). I was busy during the day but my evening was great. Allow for some time to have dinner with Cowgirl whom is a fellow co-worker.

When we are not working or talking about work, I really love cowgirl's company. We can laugh about the most random things until our guts are about to split open. We have shared some intimate details of our lives and then shed a few tears. I admire her strength, owning a ranch by herself with 3 horses, 2 dogs and a goat. I love the idea of a ranch, but I couldn't do that.

But if we talk about work. OMG, I literally can't stand her.
She is a whiner. She complains about the workload. She bitches about other Midwifes. She rags on the management.

I have work a fair amount of jobs in my life and have learned that no place is perfect. Especially if you work with predominantly females.

I told her last night we couldn't talk about work.

She agreed.

towards the end of dinner we started talking about Love. Cowgirl recently went to New York to meet a man in person that she had been chatting with for months online.
She told me all the details and that she had a really nice time. She said he will be in Vegas next month and wants her to meet him there. She doesn't want to go because she wants to find "him"(love of her life) and she feels he is only interested in "it"(sex).

Something clicked in my head and I began to see a clear picture and what makes this strong woman so bitter.

After a nasty divorce, a devastating breakup and many, many causal flings, cowgirl, at 56, has found herself alone.
Alone and lonely. And this combination has made her bitter. She realizes now that it's quite possible she may be alone the rest of her life and she is terrified.

I saw it in my Mother as I was growing up but I was to young to recognize what it was that made her at first, quite, the angry and lastly bitter. As I got older, I realized that all those years she was deeply lonely and could never get past my Father's distance and later her lover's unwillingness to commit to her.

The sadness of a woman's heart.

Why is it that some woman can learn to be alone and happy and others simply can not? There is a difference between being alone and being lonely but some can't separate the two.

For me, it's a choice.

Three years ago I was 42 years old and my heart had just been crushed. I decided to take a recovery trip to Kauai. I was forced to be alone. I realized that in my adult years, I had never been alone and I had no idea WHO I was. i think this terrified me more then being alone. When you don't know who you are, you make a lot of wrong choices.

Loneliness. Can be a bitch.

Redlands East Valley Freshman team Rocks!

2008-10-30T19:24:00.000-07:00

I went to Buddy's football game today. I have only been to half his games as I work a lot of Thursdays and damn if they aren't smack in the middle of the day!

I had today off and was so excited to watch the Freshman team rock a win.

Final score: 28 to 8!

The team is good this year and my son is a big part of it. I don't really like sports but when buddy is out there, I scream like crazy person.

A few highlights.

Buddy is in the red jersey, #67 and his butt is closest to the screen (he would be so pissed at me for describing him this way).

Can't see his number, but that's him closest to the screen blocking the other guy!

They scored on this play.

Buddy had one sack but I didn't get that one.

After the game, we had dinner at Johnny Taco, a popular sports bar in town. We go there after each home game. Baby2 came with B Boy.

We had a great time. I couldn't help but notice that the sports bar, normally crowded, was empty tonight.

Just a reminder of the tough economic times that face us today.

The road to recovery

2008-10-28T20:27:00.000-07:00

Have you ever lost someone that when you lost them, it shook you to your core?
Made you face what you are made of?

At this time, three years ago, I was in Kauai mending my broken heart. I had just left a 5 year relationship and I was pretty devastated. It was mutual, had to be done. Still hurt like a mother.

Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.

I hurt so bad, I wanted to run. So run I did. I booked Kauai because I wanted to go to the beach. Baby1 (oldest daughter) begged me to stay in the States. She was afraid I would end up on CSI.

I left a week later.

I admit, the first few days were hard. Especially mealtime. My theme of my trip became "just me" as I was asked "how many" at the restaurants and my answer was always "just me."

I ended up having a fabulous time. I took a helicopter ride. I was terrified to do this but that is exactly why I did it.

I hiked some awesome trails.

I hiked the "little grand canyon" of Kauai

I saw these on the way

And finally made it to my destination

Top of waterfall

Other side:

Some other great memories:
Rockin Red Freedom!
ed!
Sun bathing Sea Lion

I left some pieces of my heart in Kauai. Buried some of my past so I could move on to my future.

I know I will never be the same.

In a lot of ways, I'm better.

PDA

2008-10-27T22:32:00.001-07:00

I was leaving work the other morning and I saw this:

Now that is PDA!

A day with Buddy and his buddy.

2008-10-26T21:34:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I had the pleasure of spending the day with these two boys:

Jealous?

Super Saturday in Frisco

2008-10-26T14:19:00.000-07:00

I'm just a little behind on my race weekend re-cap.

Slept in on Saturday. Felt. So. Damn. Good! Looked out my window and saw this:

And this:

Decide to visit the Ferry building. I have never been there and I've been to San Francisco like 8 times!

My friend and I walked there. Two miles. Downhill. What was I thinking? Apparently, not about the trip BACK to the hotel. More on that later.

I love to walk, especially in the city. There are so many things to see that you would not see if you are in a car or on the bus. Like this:

After many stops to check out the goods in Chinatown, we made it to the Ferry building.

The Ferry building is a warehouse building on the bay. It's filled with many speciality shops of candies, cheese, wine etc. A nice bonus today- the farmers market. The fruits were so fresh and many of the vendors had samples. Yummers!

After our satisfying our taste buds with so many good fruits, we sat down at Peet's coffee for a nice warm cup of mojo. we sat outside and enjoyed the view. Nice conversation and plenty of people watching. I heard some chatter and looked over to see this:

The birds had quite a feast but I love the look on the ladies face at the next table.
I'm sure she would be very happy to know I captured her in such a flattering manner.

I had a meeting at 3:00 so we decided we better head back. But first, just one more picture:

So, away we went. The long, walk back to the hotel. Uphill. The whole way. What was I thinking?

Apparently, not about the fact that in 17 hours, I'd be running 13.1 miles.

What an idiot.

Made it back, a little tired, aching feet and very sweaty just in time for my meeting.
Lots of info and motivating stories. One of the speakers told us:"If you think your training was hard, try chemo." Makes me feel so fortunate that I am healthy and can train for this 1/2 marathon. Grateful I was sitting here, in this meeting and not having chemo. Very inspiring.

I was a bad girl and skipped the pasta party that is provided. I am fairly out going and I like to talk to people but, I really don't like to be in large, crowded places with a lot of people I don't know.

Instead, dinner was here:

Yabbies Coastal Kitchen is located in the charming Russian Hills area. Yabbies, named after a freshwater crayfish found in the waters of Australia is a must if you come to San Francisco.

The restaurant is casual with dim lighting and soft music. The service is impeccable and nice on the eyes;)

I only took one picture (again, idiot) and that was of my Caesar salad.

This was the best Caesar salad I have ever had. They make the croutons themselves. Although I'm not a fan of croutons, these were divine. I ate them all even though I had to suck them to soften them up ( I have braces).

My entree sesame crusted seared ahi with sticky rice and ginger soy sauce and carrot Dallon salad. This was a religious experience of it's own.

Dessert. Chocolate lava cake. Good, but not the best I have ever had. The design on the platter was incredible though. Shit, I wish I had taken a picture.

Yabbies has an extensive wine list and I soooo wanted a glass. I passed. Figured I better not drink and run;)

Pleasure is just a fingertip away

2008-10-23T16:03:00.000-07:00

It was Monday night, 10:30 pm and I was watching The Travel channels Antony Bourdani's No Reservations. During a commercial break I got up to get a glass of water and I heard this:
"Thrilling vibrations at your fingertips". WTF. Am I watching Saturday night live?

I turned around and I saw this:

Hmmmmmmmmmm.

So, like any normal, sexually starved girl, I wrote down the web site:
Vibratingtouch.com

The site is very helpful Even demonstrates how to put your little purple pleasure on your finger:

Step 2

Step 3

The website has "tips at your fingertips."
Tips at Your Fingertips

The Trojan Her Pleasure Vibrating Touch
fingertip massager may be used alone or with
your partner.

How to use:

Remove the fingertip massager from the foil pouch.
Slide your finger under the band and forward so that your fingertip is completely covered by the soft sleeve.
To turn the massager on, firmly push on the black button and release.
Use finger to apply vibrations externally as desired. The Trojan Her Pleasure Vibrating Touch fingertip massager is designed to stimulate a woman’s sensitive area.
To stop vibration, push in and release the black button.

Always clean your Trojan Her Pleasure Vibrating Touch fingertip massager after every use.

How to clean:
Remove the hard plastic massager from the soft sleeve. Note: the massager is not waterproof.
Using running warm water, rinse the soft sleeve and apply hand soap to clean. Take care to thoroughly clean the textured molded parts.
Rinse the hard plastic massager, being careful not to submerge in water (submersion in water or any other fluid may ruin or shorten the life span of the product).
Wipe the massager and soft sleeve with a clean dry cloth. Replace the massager back into the finger sleeve opening.
Store your clean fingertip massager in its storage pouch so it is ready for your next use.

The Trojan Her Pleasure Vibrating Touch fingertip massager will deliver vibrations for up to 30 minutes.

How to change the batteries:
Remove the hard plastic massager from the soft sleeve.
Using both hands, twist battery cap off counterclockwise.
Tip the bottom half of the massager upside down and gently tap with your finger to dislodge both (2) batteries. If clear plastic insulator falls out, place it back inside the battery holder, covering the metal contact.
Insert 2 fresh LR41 (or equivalent) batteries into the case. Make sure the (+) side of each battery faces up towards the opening.
Replace battery cap, twisting the cap on clockwise. Insert the reassembled massager into the finger sleeve opening.
Dispose of old batteries according to local law.

This little wonder has up to 30 minutes of vibrating pleasure.

Good thing I'm a travel girl and watch the travel channel. Otherwise I might have missed this purple pleasure:)

Order up Ladies!

Friday in Frisco.

2008-10-21T10:31:00.000-07:00

I used to love to fly. Travel is of course, a passion of mine (duh, I'm travel girl!). But since 9/11, it's become a chore to travel for many reasons but I will name my top three.

1.Arriving at the airport 2 hours prior so you can make it through all security checkpoints. More often than not, I'm waiting around at the gate.
2.Taking off my jewelry, jacket and shoes at the security checkpoints.
3.Liquids and gels in 3 ounce containers and ALL placed in a plastic bag(hello, I'm a female. Do you know how many fucking 3 ounce containers I took? Just guess!)

Yes, I know that you only have to worry about number 3 if you carry on but, I love to carry on. I don't like to check my luggage. I'm worried something will break something. Have you ever watched how they load the luggage on the plane? YIKES.

I'm also worried they will lose my luggage. The airline lost my friend's luggage with many pricey items. It was never recovered(well, I'm sure someone recovered it).

Anyway, I didn't want to check when going to SF because I was only going for 3 days and it's only an hour flight.

After an uneventful flight, we landed in Oakland and took a shuttle bus to SF.

It was a beautiful day. Sunny and warm by SF standards.

I checked my bags at the hotel and walked a few blocks down to try to find something to eat. I read online about an Indian restaurant and I wanted to try it.
I couldn't find the place (found out few days later they changed locations).

I ended up in Union square at Lori's, a reliable hamburger joint.

I headed up the street to pick up my race packet

After I pick up my packet, I roamed around the expo. Many freebies: pedicure, massage but the lines were soooo long I decide to skip it.

Walking back to the hotel, I walked by Niketown and that is where I saw all 20,000 names along the wall. It was so amazing! Of course, I posed with my name for a picture. I was lucky that my name was in the middle. One girl had to stand on her friends back so she could pose by her name.

The rest of the day I strolled around at a leisure pace, enjoying the weather and the many people.

I had dinner at a Chinese restaurant. I brought my camera but, forgot to take pictures. So like any smart blogger, I stole some pictures from the website:)

Brandy Ho's Hunan food is a simple, inexpensive Chinese restaurant outside of China town.If you have never eaten Hunan food, it's know to be spicy. This is the first time I have ever eaten here but came highly recommended. The ambiance is superb and the food is excellent.

Gon Pou Chicken. The chicken was so tender and just the right amount of spicy.

Vegetarian green beans. Yummy. So crisp. So spicy. So. Damn. Good.

Nice walk back to the hotel.

Dinner was a perfect ending to my most fabulous day.

BTW: I took a total of (drum roll) 15 three ounce containers. UGH!

I ran like a girl!

2008-10-20T19:19:00.001-07:00

Wow!

The Nike 1/2 marathon was an experience of a lifetime. I ran like a girl with 19,999 women and men (yep, there were some men who ran like a girl).

Some amazing highlights:
-my name in Union square among all the other 19,999 participates.

-Waiting in the cold (starting at 5:30am) with 19,999 others. Emotional. Excited. Excellent. Many goose bump moments (literally and figuratively).

-Crossing the start line at 7:23.
-A woman with prosthesis leg who fell while going downhill. She jumped up and continued running, never uttered a word.
_A woman racing with her 9 month old on her back in a backpack.
_First hill at mile 6,was a piece. of cake. Snickered to myself until mile seven. Second hill F! I wasn't snickering anymore:)
-Amazing views of the Golden gate bridge, the city, the bay and the ocean.
-All the volunteers who handed out water, gatorade and snacks and cheered us on.
_ Mile 11. My hardest mile. I thought of what they told us: if you think the marathon is hard, try chemo. I thought of Jenny and I kept running.
_Mile 12. Adrenaline kicked in and I. Ran.Fast. (think, run Forest, run!)
_Then I saw this:

What a rush! Finish time 2hours 37minutes.

Here I am after the race with my goodies:)

I didn't prepare for after the race. It was so damn cold and I was so sweaty. I could have checked a jacket before the race to wear after but, being the rocket scientist I am, I thought I wouldn't need a jacket. It was a big mistake. Huge!

They gave us these to wrap around us:

Wasn't enough. By the time I got back to the hotel, I was frozen. I couldn't wait to take a shower.

As I striped my wet clothes off, I got a glimpse of my boobs. OMG. They were purple! And my hot shower made my boobs tingle like no man ever has:)

What a fabulous weekend.

I'll blog a little tomorrow about some great eats, fabulous sites and cool apartments.

Leavin' on a Jet plane.

2008-10-16T23:40:00.000-07:00

I'm leaving early AM to San Francisco.
I run on Sunday morning. I feel strong and so excited to do this!

Wish me luck.

Have a great weekend.

Time moves too fast.

2008-10-13T20:44:00.000-07:00

I picked buddy up from football practice and took him shopping tonight. The weather has turned to bitter cold. Got to love California. Last week people still had their air condition on.

He found his jacket rather quickly and then we went to dinner.

I love this kid. There was a time, age 9-11 that I could have killed him. He was angry about the divorce which made him a pretty angry kid.

A little counseling, my boy is a nice young man. I really enjoy his company. We travel together, he never complains. He is intelligent and we have better conversations together than I do with most adults.

We had such a nice dinner, chatting about politics, college and football. We laughed about his game last week when he recovered a fumble only to just stand there with the ball held high, shocked at his accomplishment.

As we left for dinner, he patiently held the door open as a family with 2 young kids walked through. They thanked him and he simply said "no problem."

I look up to him now. At 6 foot tall he isn't a little boy anymore. He is a fine young man.