Many days of recap

This week has been busy,relaxing, miserable, entertaining and stressful all rolled in one. Yikes.

I will do my best to catch up.

December 25. Such a great day. For the last 3 years, my ex come over in the AM and the kids open their presents. It wasn't always this way but over the years we have become better friends. It makes for a much better holiday.

After presents, we mae a huge breakfast and gorge ourselves as if it was the last breakfast. Great morning.

After the kids left to go to the ex's family Christmas, I decided to make a huge pot of coffee and settle in for a Sex and the City marathon. I LOVE Sex and The City and have probably seen every episode 5 times and I never get sick of it. It was shaping up to be such a fabulous day until that evening.

The pain started behind my eyes. I tried to ignore it but it progressively got worse. Within 2 hours I felt like my head would blow off. After taking a pharmacy of medications, my head was still exploding and now I was nauseated from taking too much Excedrin and Motrin. Not much sleep which only made the situation worse.

December 26:

Finally fell asleep about 5am only to wake up at 6am with the third world war being fought in my head. I dragged my ass to work were I barely survived. Thank God it was a light day so I was able to get to Urgent Care.

I was not only in pain but was so disappointed because I wanted to spend time with babygirl1 and hubby. I gave it my best shot but the fioronal was not kicking in very fast and I was miserable. I did sleep better which was a relief.

December 27:

I had to work again today and Babygirl1 and hubby had to go home. My work is on their way home so they stop to have lunch. I was definitely feeling better and we had a nice but short visit. I so miss her and my tears flowed heavily when she left.

After work, I had my 6th date with Mr. J. I know I have not posted much about him because I'm still not sure where this will actually go. We are having a great time together. He is fun to be around and he makes me laugh. Unfortunately, there is a little too much baggage for me. So unfortunate as I really do like him.
I have been honest with him and made my intentions clear. He knows, too, that he is not really ready for long term. And it's OK with me.

Clearly, this is a rebound relationship. Even though my last relationship ended 3 years ago, I still have not fully recovered. Yes, I have grown tremendously. I am much more stable, secure and Independant. I am happy with the woman I have become. yet, there is a small piece of me that still mourns my loss.

Mr J is in the middle of a messy divorce. He has been married 24 years and letting go of that kind of history is difficult. I have been there myself and We talk about the healing process frequently.

This relationship has got me thinking. A lot.
I have learned so much from my last relationship. I have learned to use my head AND my heart so I can see the red flags instead of rationalizing them away.
I am a cautious person and do not trust easily. Even though I blogged about how many dates should I wait until I jump into bed, I already knew the answer for myself and I obeyed my head and not my loins:)

I don't know how long this relationship will last. I had a dream the other night that he went back to his wife. In the dream, I was not angry but happy and relieved.

Maybe it's a sign.

Serious Sinus Infection

Oh Gawd, what an awful 4 days this has been.

Christmas night I started with a serious headache that would not go away. Started behind my eyes and quickly worked it's way through the top of my head and then to the back of my head. Serious pain.

I didn't sleep much that night and I had to work the next day. Being the responsible person that I am (I hate this quality sometimes), I went to work.

The moon must have been in the right place the night before because my patient load in the clinic was super light. By mid afternoon, I had the chills, green shit where it didn't belong, a headache that put any hangover headache I have ever had, to shame and a temperature of 101 degrees.

After clinic, I went to urgent care. My luck was still running strong because I didn't wait long at all. The drive there was a different story. My head felt like it was going to blow off and the sun rays were penetrating my sun glasses. It was unbearable!!!

I love urgent care Doctors. They love to hand out the drugs and get rid of you. The Doc. I saw was very generous. I got heavy duty antibiotic and some fiornal for my throbbing head.

I went to fill the prescription and decided to buy some more of Zyrtec D which is a decongestant. I don't know if any of you have bought decongestants lately but they ask to see your drivers license so they can enter your number into a computer to make sure you haven't been buying a bunch of decongestants to make methampetamines. UGH, the world we live in. Anyway, back to the story. The clerk looks at my license and says "Um, you license is expired."
F! How can that be. "they never sent me a renewal."
She told me " I'll just put 2012. License renewal is every 4 years right?"
I think she just felt sorry for me. I was looking pretty pathetic by this point.

However, now I feel sorry for myself too! I have to go to the DMV today and renew a license that has been expired for 1 month. Double F!!!!!

I will catch up tonight on my blogging. Many, many stories!!

SSS gift.

I got my SSS gift yesterday. Actually, I probably got it on Saturday but this cold has really kicked my ass!

I have to work today and I'm still not feeling very good. I will take pictures soon and post.

Thank you to my SSS! I got some really awesome things:)