here I am blogging.
I ignored a call from a man that I've been blind e-mailing (like a blind date but by e-mail). I was watching project runway and didn't want to be bother.
How the hell can I possibly find HIM if I'm not willing to be "bothered".
This guy seems pretty nice but honestly, I'm afraid to fall in love again.
I haven't been on a date since I broke up with my long time boyfriend 3 years ago. I've had a hard time mending my heart. Yet, in the process, I have learned so much about me. Being alone taught me how to be alone and not lonely.
In fact, I'm rarely lonely. It creeps in on occasion, in bed when I want to snuggled.
Seems though, that my being alone bothers everyone else. I get the comments "He's out there for you". "Keep looking". "Your standards are too high".
It's all bullshit. The pool of datable men actually is just a wading pool and I will not lower my standards out of fear of being alone.
I'll call him tomorrow.